Zhifan Shen's Secret (3)

"In three days he was gone. Not long after he left, about a month, there was an explosion."

He went over the story of that year in his head, but his mouth erased it lightly.

Zhirou Shen moved his lips in silence, and finally his eyes glanced down without speaking.

"Was that explosion really ...... really what that Ferdinandia said it was, us, you ...... you and mom?"

He looked at her, stroked her head.

Zhirou Shen felt the warmth of his brother's hand, and his calm and deep eyes, the heart suddenly quiet, as if he used his own power to open a cloud, mourning and gloom was swept away by the sun.

It's all in the past, and facing it again, while it's hard to remember, should make you stronger.

"We wouldn't have been able to escape, but we were lucky," Zhifan Shen managed to smile in spite of his bitterness, "You know, it just so happens, I spent those three days studying that half-finished mech that Grandpa made, and even though it's very worn out and ugly, it actually works. "

Zhirou Shen expressed his surprise: "Really, that's it? When Grandpa showed it to us back then I thought it was a big wimpy melon, it's really super ugly."

Zhifan Shen had a moment to be gagged by his sister's straightforwardness.

Even though that mech really does look like a pimpled wimp, it's not good to tell about it.

"You've been in a coma because you were more seriously injured at the time, and you didn't know any of these things, and at the time we were having a hard time because of ...... Mom and Dad and Planet, and I just didn't make that part clear."

Zhifan Shen The eyes were quiet, but not in a nice way; his eyes looked more like age-soaked ungentlemen than his features.

"Well, indeed, Ferdinandia did not lie to you, it is indeed true."

Zhirou Shen looked at him, his lips opening and closing, but he could not say anything.

"Mom told me before she died that we had enemies, that we were a little less ordinary than we thought, and so were our enemies, so we just had to be careful how we lived," he was surprised to feel relieved that the secrets he had buried deep in his heart were finally pried open a little bit, and he was no longer alone in his deathbed, "I initially thought it was some kind of terrorist organization that simply had a grudge against mom and dad."

"You remember, when I first joined Interstellar Orphanage, that Mr. Li Ge contacted me."

"He said he knew my parents and could lift me up, yet again, just like mom said, there was no way we could do something honorable with our old identities," he sighed, "I didn't think too much of it at the time, he told me to go to the underground mech arena, so I did. "

"Really, there's no way around it, we need the money."

Zhirou Shen steps forward and wraps his arms around Zhifan Shen.

"I'm sorry, I always thought ...... I really didn't realize that you were working so hard."

Zhirou Shen's head was buried in Zhifan Shen's chest and he smiled softly, feeling the warmth of his sister's body.

"It's actually okay, now that I've gotten through it and taken a look at it, it's okay, it just feels like it's really quite remarkable."

"It's okay, don't cry, I had a thorough treatment later, most of the aftereffects at that time have healed, or else I can't see much more than now, I once had an eight centimeter scar on my face, it's very hard to see ...... Well, well, don't scare you."

"Don't cry, Zhirou, be strong."

He really doesn't seem to take those things seriously anymore.

"...... didn't cry!"

Zhirou Shen owled.

Zhifan Shen : "Then wipe your nose first, don't get it on me."

Zhirou Shen : "......"

Where is the promised warmth and affection, why is it so cold again in the blink of an eye.

"That said, it's thanks to Ferdinandia, who uncovered my talent and gave me the conditions to heal, or I wouldn't have improved so quickly."

Zhirou Shen looks up, "So isn't Ferdinandia a good person, and why are you all saying--"

"I felt the same way at first," he was silent for a moment, seeming to feel a little sad, "especially when he told me the truth about the explosion, I really felt like the whole world had collapsed and there was darkness in front of me, and he was the only one who opened a hand to me."

"He was channeling my hatred, making me paranoid and desperate. I had another journal at the time that I never could find because I had burned it."

"Because that journal was such a horrible record of me," he said just as blandly about his past, "that when I went back through it, I didn't hold back from burning it."

"If Ya Ni hadn't found me, I could have done anything later on, Ferdinandia wanted me to kill whoever I wanted to kill ...... No, I've already done that."

His voice twisted a little as he said it.

"Zhirou, brother did all these things wrong, but it can't be helped."

Zhirou Shen looked at him with surprise.

"I often lose my temper at the mech base, I can't control ...... You can't imagine how much I used to love it and how much I feared it."

Zhifan Shen covers his eyes.

"I used to go through Mechanical Eagles over and over again, my teenage fantasies, expectations, and loves reduced to torture in the end. The pain I felt in the underground mech arena, and the pain I felt when I used it to kill people, ate away at me over and over again."

"He asked me to help him root out dissenters without moving," his voice was a little obscure, "I've killed a few ministers, and with the light armor he gave me, it was easy to get through the layers of guards and pierce their hearts."

"I don't know them and they don't know me."

"And I do it clean, I'm the best 'knife' he's ever had, and he admires me."

"You know," Zhifan Shen said suddenly, "at that time I was full of hatred and thought that if I followed him, I could create a perfect and clean new world."

"But the souls of the dead who died under me haunt me day and night, and they ask me, even if there is a new world like that, do you deserve it, do you deserve to live in that new world?"

"It's not just the ministers, it's the undead in the underground mech field."

He propped a hand over his eyes, fell silent, and laughed again.

"They're right--"

"How unworthy ah!" Zhirou Shen suddenly shouted a voice, with a little bit of crying, "What is not worthy, everything is worthy ...... We have done nothing wrong ah, we have been, very careful to live ah!"

Zhifan Shen gave her a complicated look and leaned her head against the side of his shoulder.

"Well, let's move on to Ferdinandia. We are the 'Weier Xi' of their mouths, the Soft, and they stand on top of the world and see us as food."

Zhirou Shen huffed, "Is that you and mom?"

Zhifan Shen frowned, "It's not just me and mom, it's you too."

Zhirou Shen seemed to be shocked for a moment and cried even more.

"I grass that by what right I look so ugly ah, do not all say that looks beautiful? This is all the only racial advantage ah, I mutated? Why should I be ah! How hard it is to look good, it's not easy to look like me!"

He was shocked by his sister's resentment and cried and laughed as he stroked her head again.

"Then you don't realize that our mom doesn't look good either."

"Yeah," Zhirou Shen looked up, "why, oh yeah, Jia Jia once looked at mom's picture and said she was very pretty and that you looked like her, what kind of fresh aesthetic is that?"

"...... Jia Yi , she called herself Ya Ni when I met her." Zhifan Shen licked his lips, a little thirsty from speaking so much, "I met her in the underground mech arena, she was nearly sold and has been hiding there as a waitress waiting for her family to find her."

"She's a distant cousin of Olivia's, how far away I don't remember, those families of theirs are always messed up, quite far away anyway," Zhifan Shen continued, "You can actually tell, despite being in a place like that, that her temperament and looks are obviously that of a pampered young lady."

Speaking of Jia Yi, Zhirou Shen's expression is a bit complicated.

"Their family, on the other hand, has an ability called 'empathy' that allows them to see through to the essence with the help of something, but it's tiring. Mom we're not pretty to look at, but I'm sure it's been pretty, I think it's something she's used, she's uprooted herself from her home country in an effort to try and escape her family's fate."

Zhirou Shen looked at him pitifully.

Zhifan Shen Somewhat intolerant: "The reason why you are not beautiful ...... I do not know, it may really be a mutation."

Zhirou Shen almost lost his breath, very unconvinced.

"I was the one who helped her get out of the underground mech arena, so she's always been grateful to me, and because of Olivia, it was easy for her to get to know Ferdinandia." Zhifan Shen lowered her head, "She found out I was close to Ferdinandia and then told me that Ferdinandia was scary."

"How scary is that, he's a person who has a natural preference for killing, not much emotion, not quite like a normal person."

"She's been trying so hard to help me, I was in such a terrible state, in a constant state of self-destruction by way of destroying the world, that she's been secretly researching this Ferdinandia person."

"It's still because of Olivia that she gets close to Ferdinandia easily, plus Olivia and Ferdinandia are very much at odds and she discovers a Ferdinandia secret along the way."

At this point, Zhifan Shen stops, and surprisingly, he doesn't forget to keep his mouth shut.

Zhirou Shen was exasperated by him, "What secret?"

"I always thought of his savior at that time, but I didn't realize that he was the Great Demon King," Zhifan Shen smiled to himself, "I underestimated the charm of 'Weier Xi', and it turns out that all these people really can't refuse the the so-called immortality."

"He's even more outrageous than those people, he rescued a portion of our people, wanting to be like us, erasing the list for us, using the name of the Savior," Zhifan Shen's gaze suddenly became sharp and cold, "In reality he's the one who's been experimenting with ' Weier Xi ' as an experiment."

"...... doing experiments?" Zhirou Shen's heart pumped, "We, our flesh, ah blood, are really so useful, then why do we still have birth, old age, sickness and death?"

"I don't know," Zhifan Shen smiled bitterly, "I've never taken it either, and I don't really feel anything myself, but they're so desperate, it might actually work."

"Doing experiments, well, Ferdinandia is the Grand Prince you know, he didn't really have to go through all that trouble, he could have inherited his father's and those people's 'property', but he didn't want to ...... because his father was very perverted, yes, Bonin III, our 'sire'."

Zhifan Shen looked disgusted.

"He is a weak, bloated, stupid man, but on the contrary, he has supreme power, and it is he ...... who has ruined Ferdinandia."

"...... what?"

"He," Zhifan Shen said here surprisingly a little intolerant, he sighed, " Ferdinandia was young ...... I don't know what kind of impact this experience had on Ferdinandia caused what kind of impact, but he is now living such a twisted life, such a desire to usurp the throne, such a destructive tendency personality must have nothing to do with this incident."

Zhirou Shen looked puzzled: "What?"

Zhifan Shen sighed, "Never mind you don't have to understand, it's just gross anyway."

Zhirou Shen continued with a blank expression, "Oh."

"We didn't turn out to be test subjects, because, for one thing, I'm still useful, and because ...... he kind of likes me."

Zhifan Shen's expression was a bit odd.

" Ferdinandia has had countless lovers and doesn't mind favoring one more."

Zhirou Shen this time understand, angry hard slap thigh: "Damn this son of a bitch want to eat your tofu?!"

Zhifan Shen : "...... Can you shoot yourself in the leg."

At the end he looked at Zhirou Shen's nervousness and felt funny again, "But I'm useful, so he doesn't force, at best, to count, chased me."

Zhirou Shen remembered that I once had a young girl's heart, and it snapped and shattered.

"It's a shame I used to--"

"But it's okay, he's a ...... tsk, how do you say, really, really complicated person."

"All of his lovers look more or less like one." Zhifan Shen thought for a moment, "Including me, I've met the guy so I realized I look slightly like him there in the eyes."

"...... Who is it?" Zhirou Shen was a bit confused.

"His brother, Laiya You."

"...... Wait a minute," Zhirou Shen , suddenly slowed down, "You just said that Bonglin III is his dad, he, his brother ...... Oops fuck me."

The only way to express your feelings in Zhirou Shen's mouth is to use an expletive.

"Even stranger," Zhifan Shen thought, "Laiya You also seems to be his lover, if it is said to be looking for a double, there is no need to ah, the main body are in the ...... so that he, this person, there are fault."

Zhirou Shen couldn't help but spit out, "Are all the royals so messed up?"

"...... I don't know," Zhifan Shen frowned, "Nevermind I don't want to talk about him, mostly, even though I'm doing things for Ferdinandia we're still in his eyes as ' Weier Xi ', and he isn't going to leave us alone, you know?"

"So you have to run away, Zo, you go, my side of the action ...... is dangerous."

Zhirou Shen's eyes widened, "What action?"

Zhifan Shen was silent for a moment, "Ferdinandia can't be allowed to succeed, even if I still want a new world, but that's human nature, and who sitting in that kind of position can refuse immortality, immortality is a bit of an exaggeration, but I've heard that it does have a role to play."

Zhirou Shen suddenly covered his mouth, "...... Do you want to kill Ferdinandia?"

Zhifan Shen looked at her in silence, the bottom of his eyes flickered uncertainly, and for a moment he actually felt that there was light in it, and there were fragments of a starry sea.

He leaned down and hugged her, kissing her forehead.

"I may die, but for you, for the clan."

He suddenly smiled.

"I don't have any regrets anymore, I built myself a dream. It's been a short period of time to fall in love a little bit with my favorite person regardless of anything, and I have a final date tonight, so well ...... it's complete."

"You see, I have no regrets, even though the dream is awake."

Zhirou Shen was shocked by his elder brother's fearless tone and could only look at him dumbfounded for a moment.

It's been pretty goofy though.

"Run away, Nozomi."

"You can only flee, without Ferdinandia, and the next heir, the ones this empire keeps ...... as long as there are those."

"We were born unlucky."