Zhifan Shen's Secret (3)

The diary is very thick, Zhifan Shen felt a bit scared when he opened it, obviously it is just a diary, but it seems to be opening an unspeakable history.

It wasn't that dramatic, and he settled himself slowly.

The first page is from '28, which is five years ago, and the handwriting is so dazzling that he was obviously very emotionally unstable at the time he wrote it down.

"Today was my first day here, the challenge table here was designed to be very high, and the first one I saw when I walked in to see it was a mech that was thrown straight down and snapped in half."

"Looking at it from that perspective, and combining it with the books I'd read years before, I deduced that the guy in it probably wouldn't survive, but no one cared if he did or not."

"I heard them shouting, those spectators ...... should be the audience, their emotions were ignited to the highest, directly take the money to the stage, full of money raining down, it's so beautiful ...... but no one noticed That loser who was folded out in half, their eyes are gathered on the stage."

"Mr. Li Ge says that's the strongest mech in this underground mech arena, a trifecta, and that a month's worth of income could buy an entire Interstellar Orphanage."

"Actually the income is secondary to me, I just want to survive, my sister got burned on her back, I don't know what did it, there's a big reddish patch there, I hope it won't scar but it's highly unlikely, she thinks I don't know and isn't going to tell me, I know she's trying to be understanding but she doesn't know that this is what cuts me to the core, I can't let her stay in a place like that, I can't let her stay in a place like that. powerless, and I can't keep her in a place like that."

"As Mr. Li Ge said, the shady people are on my trail, and I'm floundering, with no means of pursuing any honorable profession ...... sounds pathetic, doesn't it?"

"The boy sold me a diary as I passed by, he said I should need this, he was in ragged clothes and looked miserable I suppose, I'm no longer in the position or habit of pitying bystanders, but I bought it anyway, if I die tomorrow at least my sister will still get a pension, if not then this diary may still have my handwriting."

This is the first entry in this diary, the first day Zhifan Shen stepped into the underground mech arena back then, and he didn't exactly have a good time before that, or he wouldn't have gotten this far.

Seeing their own past real experience but forget the past, as if looking through other people's stories, but unfortunately more than watching other people's stories a point of deep and unable to extricate themselves from the sadness, the onlookers will only be light and lofty sighs two just.

Turns out I was really at the end of my rope.

Zhifan Shen suddenly felt a kind of unspeakable fatigue, but also suddenly remembered that he had touched those buttons before when rolling up the sharp pain, are at that time to develop.

It should be the end of the road.

Zhirou Shen life is also very bad right, but she also refused to tell him, lightly two sentences on the past, Zhirou Shen that a prickly prideful little girl, but also by this kind of day slowly polished into a dead stone?

However, there are still some words that Zhifan Shen did not understand, for example, "Those in the shadows are searching for me", who is searching for him?

Why can't he pursue an honorable career?

Zhifan Shen slowly turned to the second page.

"I survived, it was a beautiful day and I stared out at the sun for a long time. My eardrums are still rattling to this day as if dozens of bombers were falling next to me, I could hardly hear anything and I couldn't sleep at all, the doctor in the underground field told me it was no big deal and left, but it seems to be bleeding on the inside now."

"But I'm not disgruntled, I feel lucky that at least I survived."

"Unfortunately the man across the street died in a somewhat tragic manner, his neck was broken along with his mech, he looked surprisingly younger than me, his ribs pierced out as he died, his whole body twisted and drenched in blood, I felt a wave of nausea, I threw up for a long time, and now my whole body is very weak."

"I felt fear and a sudden fearlessness."

"Look on the bright side Zhifan Shen , if she died tomorrow, your sister would get a bigger pension."

It was the next day, and Zhifan Shen's mind flashed vaguely to a battle, a battle that sounded a little pathetic.

Two young boys, perhaps both no more than seventeen or eighteen years of age, fighting to the death for tomorrow here, and then paying a great price, life here worthless, the audience offstage watching coldly as if they were watching a pantomime, and snickering, their deaths without a shred of dignity, hastily buried in blood by decaying old bills.

Zhifan Shen throat moved slightly, he even felt that pain by his eardrums, he turned to the next page.

"I'm alive today too, but my ears still hurt and I can't hear anything."

"The bad news is the doctor said I've got to get it looked at, and if I don't I could go deaf, and the good news is I'm on a two-game winning streak and have a week's worth of rest."

"But there's no way I can go back to see Zhirou Shen ...... I probably won't be able to visit her for a long time, at least not until I'm good enough to look like a human being, and she'll probably burst into tears when she sees me like this, and I don't want to make her cry again."

" Ya Ni was very kind to me, she bandaged me carefully, I was wrapped up like one of those mummies in old history books, and I thought it was quite funny when I looked in the mirror, which made me make Ya Ni laugh, but she still shed two tears for me ...... She is a good girl, but it is a pity that I can't accept her heart."

"That's all for today, I hope I'm still alive a week from now."

Wrapped up as a mummy ...... Zhifan Shen The corners of his mouth lifted into a somewhat helpless smile, and the bitter sweetness of a dying teenager was made to sound kinda funny.

The third diary entry however was not a week later, looking at the dates only three days apart.

"I got a particularly interesting purchase today, it's so nostalgic, look, The Mechanical Eagle, my gosh, I can't believe I managed to find these from the warehouse of that diary-selling kid who said he admired me so much, and let me pick out a copy."

"Ahem, of course I picked that guy's copy, the others have long lost their appeal to me now, seriously, I'm a bit angry now that I think about it, I just realized that so much of what I've read in Mechanical Eagle before was just nonsense, no wonder it can only be sold in that kind of small shitty place to fool kids like us... ...When I settle down later, I want to publish mecha magazines too, and they'll definitely sell better than 'Mechanical Eagle'."

"Also I have my first fan, well, April who sells journals and old magazines has been stealing my first fan spot from Ya Ni, haha, they said I'd be a hit because I'm not only awesome but also handsome, and even though I'm still at the bottom of the heap, they just believe in me so much... ...Eh, they're all really lovely people and it makes my mummy life a lot more interesting."

"The day of the race is close again and I'm a bit scared, but live one day at a time isn't it."