Chapter 88: I um you.

Winter and summer are fast approaching in the South City. December is not yet the middle of the month, Chen Jingshen got up to get a glass of water, and when he came back, the windows were already covered with snow.

He picks up his cell phone and sends a message, [What's going on?

The message had just gone out when there was a knock on the door and a boy poked his head in, staring blankly as he saw what was going on in the office.

Chen Jingshen stared at the screen and waited for a few seconds, did not see the prompt that was being typed, looked up to meet his line of sight: "What."

He looked back, "No! Brother Shen, we just want to ask you what you want to eat tonight. We're going to order takeout."

"No need."

"Huh?"

"I'm not staying at the office tonight." Chen Jingshen said, "Don't give me any."

The boy reacted for a few more seconds, before letting out an "oh" and closing the office door softly.

"What's that look on your face?" The employee who was contacting the restaurant owner asked, "How? What does Brother Deep eat?"

"He doesn't eat."

"Huh?"

"Deep actually said, he's not working overtime tonight!" He was shocked, "And when I just went in I saw Deep playing with his cell phone and touching the fish - this is the first time I've ever seen Deep working and touching the fish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"......"

Everyone around them froze for a moment, after all, there weren't many workdays since this big brother of their company joined that he didn't work overtime, and often even slept directly at the company. Although it was true that the new company had a lot to be busy with, each of them couldn't help but speculate whether the boss had saved the big man's life when they first joined.

However, they soon realized that there was nothing else to it, and that their big brother loved to code and write algorithms, and didn't care about anything or anyone else. It is said that when the boss recruited him into the company, he offered him the position of technical director, but in the end, he declined, on the grounds that he was too lazy to manage people.

The man was silent for a moment, and after a long time he got up, "I'll go confirm it again ......"

"Hey! No need to go, have that time to chat with the owner of the restaurant more, let him secretly add a chicken leg for you." Luo Liyang, who passed behind him, patted his shoulder, "If nothing else, you won't have to order food for him for a while."

"Huh? Why?"

"Why?" Luo Liyang laughed, "Someone at home is waiting."

There was another commotion, "What? Deep has a date?"

The guy was slapped on the back and the girl next to him said expressionlessly, "Are you stupid? Didn't Deep say he had a boyfriend when I first joined the company?"

"I thought that was just Sham rejecting your lend-oops, wrong! Don't fight! Don't hit!!!"

"Keep your voices down you two! Be careful of being heard by Brother Deep! But boss, so Deep's brother's guy is really, really, a guy ......"

New company, plus a group of young programmers in the technical department, we get along with the atmosphere of relaxation and casual, not too much to say. Usually we call Luo Liyang, the technical director, directly "boss".

Luo Liyang made a "shh" gesture: "Come on, don't gossip. But let me say this in advance, our company is at the forefront of fashion, and we don't discriminate, not in any way."

"Understood!"

"We sure as hell won't, what with the age of it all."

Luo Liyang nodded his head in satisfaction, "Okay, it's almost time, except for those on night duty, don't work overtime at the company today, it's snowing, pack up and go back."

"Affirmative! Even Brother Deep doesn't work overtime, what reason do we have to work overtime! Take it home and do it!"

Chen Jingshen didn't know that his words had made the department's employees leave work on time en masse for the first time ever.

All he knew was that his boyfriend hadn't replied to his messages after quite a long time, and his phone was still off when he called.

The clock pointed to six, Chen Jingshen backpack out of the office, he opened the door, the other people on the workstation also abruptly followed stand up.

Chen Jingshen: "?"

A hand on his shoulder, Luo Liyang said, "Let's go, to celebrate your first time leaving work on time, everyone will leave work on time with you."

Chen Jingshen : "......"

-

Yu Fan stood with his hands in his pockets next to the office building's front door, looking back at the clock on the lobby wall for the seventh time in his boredom and meeting the eyes of the security guards who had been watching him surreptitiously for the seventh time.

Yu Fan blew a very round and beautiful bubble without changing her color.

Security: "......"

The bubble leak deflated, just in time to hear a vague "ding", the first floor of the elevator door slowly opened, revealing that it was full of a box of people.

The clothes they were wearing were like copy and paste - black rushing jackets, heavy dark cashmere sweaters with plaid shirts of various colors inside with the collars turned outside, duffel bags and jeans, and glasses on most of their faces.

Even the only girl inside was in a simple gray.

A group of people were laughing and joking, not knowing what they were chatting about, the scene was harmonious, only Chen Jingshen was tapping his cell phone with his head down. Wrapped in a black trench coat, he stood in the crowd, tall and striking.

Luo Liyang was texting his date for dinner when his arm was poked by the person next to him, "Did you drive here? Give me a ride."

Luo Liyang inexplicable: "Walking ten minutes of the road ...... just know that moment I politely and politely said to send you, you do not all refuse it?"

"Delivery or not?" Chen Jingshen frowned.

"Send, brother to your doorstep."

The others around them were chattering. The girl stretched, "Ugh, it's hard to get off work early, I don't know what I'm going to do when I get home."

"I'll give you a little bit of the work I've got on my hands?"

"Dream on you, do your own thing yourself ...... The man at the door is so handsome."

"Come on, there can be more handsome than me and Biggie - ooh! Long-haired dudes!"

Just after the words were spoken, it was like a gust of wind swept by their shoulders.

Before the group could react, Biggie was already standing next to the handsome guy in the doorway, and reaching out to sweep the snowflakes off the others' heads.

"Why isn't the cell phone on?" Chen Jingshen asked.

"No power." Yu Fan exhaled a mouthful of white mist as he spoke.

"Going somewhere."

"Went back to the old house to look around," Yu Fan said before remembering something and taking a step back, "Chen Jingshen, I'm covered in dust, stay away from me."

I wanted to ask why he didn't wait for me to join him, but then I thought that he had been away for so long, and probably wanted to go back alone for a while. Chen Jingshen did not say anything more, and then asked, "Why did you suddenly come over?"

Yu Fan pursed his lips and said expressionlessly, "...... pick you up from work."

A group of gossipy coworkers in the back who had intentionally slowed down arrived at the scene just in time to see the big man of the group smile for the first time in a hundred years.

Though faint, it is still a miracle.

Everyone wanted to look at it but didn't dare to look at it too much, their eyes turned to Yu Fan's face many times, but were finally driven away by Luo Liyang.

"Hello," Luo Liyang extends his hand towards Yu Fan, "We met in the video, remember?"

"Remember." Yu Fan reached out to shake his hand rustily, "You look younger than in the video."

"Really? Hahaha, I told you, what you said the other day really scared me."

"Hmm." Yu Fan said, "Not more than 27 at a glance."

"......"

-

Chen Jingshen endured a hard time along the way.

"What's so funny??" Yu Fan jabbed him in the arm.

"No. I was just going to ask," Chen Jingshen sidetracked him, "You're not here to pick me up from work?"

"Yeah." Yu Fan asks, "Problem?"

"No."

As the two of them walked forward in the wind and snow, Chen Jingshen held the palm of her hand in his hair and discussed with him, "But next time you pick me up, can you bring an umbrella."

"......"

Chen Jingshen is not often at home these days, and today he came back in a hurry and did not have time to prepare the ingredients, so the two of them ate dinner at a restaurant that Chen Jingshen often goes to.

It was already raining and snowing outside when they left the hotel, and by the time they got home both of their clothes and hair were basically wet.

Yu Fan entered the room, and before he could even take off his jacket, there was an extra towel on his head.

"Go take a shower." Chen Jingshen said.

"You."

"Return the message." The phone buzzed and vibrated the whole way, and he didn't look at it.

Yu Fan went into the bathroom, Chen Jingshen stood in front of the window and flipped through his cell phone. Nothing major, just a couple of Luo Liyang's nonsense and a couple of work issues.

He tossed the phone away after a few brief replies, intending to go unpack the boxes that had been sitting in the living room for who knows how long, when the bathroom door slashed open with a crash.

"Chen Jingshen," Yu Fan's voice was lazy, "pass the clothes off the table."

Chen Jingshen Picked up his clothes and reached for them.

Yu Fan did not answer. He leaned against the edge of the door, his wet hair staining his white, rounded shoulders, and raised his eyelids in the half-open doorway to look straight at him, "Finished answering the message?"

"Uh-huh."

Yu Fan raised an eyebrow, then was silent.

They were always like that. Usually, when they met eyes between words, they would somehow come together and touch lips, not to mention look at each other quietly in the dense white mist filled with heat.

After a few seconds, Chen Jingshen threw her clothes back on the table, pushed the bathroom door wide open, and leaned her face down to kiss him.

Yu Fan's whole face looked puzzled when Chen Jingshen stepped into the shower.

Chen Jingshen adjusted the temperature of the water, "The water is not hot enough to catch a cold after washing."

"I'm 24, not 74, and my immune system isn't that bad." Yu Fan said.

Chen Jingshen seemed to let out a vague laugh, too loud for the water to hear. He turned around and raised an eyebrow, "What's that expression?"

"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan frowned, "Why are you different from everyone else in your company? Do you all secretly work out while everyone else is working? Isn't that too sinister ......"

Chen Jingshen couldn't hear it anymore and lowered his head to kiss the person.

As the water heated up, Yu Fan felt hot while the wall behind him was shivering with ice.

Suddenly released, Yu Fan frowned with half-lidded eyes, "What?"

"A few more days." Chen Jingshen said.

Yu Fan instantly realized, he stepped on Chen Jingshen's foot, not using much force, "Chen Jingshen, I'm going to say it a few times, you're really common, I'm really not in pain."

"......"

Chen Jingshen pushed his hair back, revealing his entire face, "There's nothing at home."

"I have it in my pants pocket." Yu Fan raised his chin toward the vanity.

"......"

Seeing the emotions in Chen Jingshen's eyes, Yu Fan coolly raised his eyebrows, "Chen Jingshen, do you really think that I'm going to pick you up from work without any permission ......"

Before he could finish his sentence, he was grabbed by the chin and kissed again.

Yu Fan's back was against the wall and his vision was blurred.

As the hot water slid over every inch, Yu Fan's throat slipped and he reached up to cup Chen Jingshen's face.

The water gurgled into Chen Jingshen's hair, then slid down from the hairline, past the bridge of his nose and lips, and some of it didn't enter his eyes. Chen Jingshen's eyes were dark and deep, and the bottom of his eyes were stimulated by the hot water to create a vague red color, and then finally slid down his eye sockets.

It looks like tears.

For a moment, Yu Fan felt that his back was not against a wall, but against the old wooden door of his house.

Did Chen Jingshen look like this when she cried? She also had so many tears? Usually, I hide my emotions to death, so how could I be discovered by a little sister when I was secretly crying?

Shame or no shame.

I was a crybaby as a child, and I'm still the same as an adult.

Yu Fan, his heart aching, gritted his teeth very softly and reached up to wipe his face. He wiped the water from Chen Jingshen's eyes, rubbed his eyes, and messed up the hair on his forehead. The movements were heavy and serious, but it seemed like he couldn't finish.

"Chen Jingshen, don't cry in the future, you're ugly like that." He threw out a command.

Chen Jingshen slightly stunned, and quickly lowered his eyelids to kiss him, his tone cold: "Didn't you let me cry one for you before?"

Before?

Yu Fan thought about it for a while before remembering that he seemed to have said, "I don't want to now. I got tired of watching it when I was a kid."

Chen Jingshen moves a beat and looks at him in silence for a moment before asking, "When did ...... you remember?"

"I remembered long ago, the eyes are so small." Yu Fan reached out to touch his eyelids and said with no expression on his crimson ears, "Chen Jingshen, don't stop."

-

Chen Jingshen thinks his boyfriend is a very interesting person.

Always very frank when it came to certain things, any way. But as soon as he held the button between his necks, his whole face would be strangely smelly, and his mouth hardened as if they were in a fight.

It's still raining and snowing outside, and their house is on a high floor, so Chen Jingshen didn't pull the curtains, and it's a white world next to him.

"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan asked with little emotion as she lay on her pillow and listened to him hammer out the code, "Do you think you're going to go bald in a few years for sure, so you're going to pull up a cushion?"

"Nope, said I wouldn't go bald." Chen Jingshen said.

Yu Fan didn't respond, his shoulder resting against the side of his leg, his breath warm and gentle.

Chen Jingshen did not hold back, stopping his fingers just wanted to touch his hair, the person next to him suddenly very dumbly screamed again.

"Chen Jingshen."

Chen Jingshen hmmm.

"Why do you suddenly want to be a programmer?"

Chen Jingshen dropped his eyes to look at him, a little surprised at the question.

His other hand stopped as well, and he answered coldly and seriously, "Because it's hard."

"?" Yu Fan reached out and poked him in the leg.

"The deeper you go, the harder it gets, and the faster the pace, the more you feel like you're competing with the world every moment." Chen Jingshen said, "So it's a great way to kill time, not get distracted, and not have to socialize."

Strange reasons don't seem to be strange when it comes to Chen Jingshen.

"Where's your dog?" Yu Fan paused at that, struggling to support himself sideways, elbows propped up on the pillows, reaching for Chen Jingshen's chin, "No, Chen Jingshen, your fucking sixth-grade dog, you named him Fanfan? what does that mean??"

"...... Keeping at home, the place where I have lived for the past few years does not allow large dogs." I didn't expect the old accounts to be turned over at this time, Chen Jingshen thought about it and didn't think of a way, so he added fuel to the fire and explained, "Aren't I timid? You are not here, I can only raise him to strengthen the courage."

"...... I'll buy a kingbird tomorrow and call it deep."

"It's okay." Chen Jingshen held up his hand, "It's okay if you call it deep."

"......"

A sudden startling yellow accent.

Under the dim light of the bedside table, Yu Fan's face was burning red, and she looked like she was about to open her mouth to curse in the next second.

Chen Jingshen was even ready for a chokehold, but his boyfriend was slow to open his mouth and just watched him under the lights.

After a long time, Chen Jingshen inclined her head to kiss him, and the hand cupping her chin suddenly tightened a bit.

"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan called again.

"Uh-huh."

"There are a lot of mosquitoes in front of my house."

"......"

Chen Jingshen was silent, and finally realized what was wrong with Yu Fan tonight. I noticed it in the bathroom just now, and I kept rubbing his eyes, and I guess the area under his eyes has turned white.

"It's okay, not as much as downstairs in my house." He responded jokingly.

Yu Fan, however, could not laugh, he asked: "That security guard still kicked you out? He came in through connections, he's as skinny as a monkey, his thighs are not as thick as your arms, you can't beat him?"

"I didn't hit him, it's not easy for him to work." Chen Jingshen said, "I also do not take advantage."

"......"

In an instant, those dense aches and pains returned with a rising tide. Yu Fan let go of him and lay back down again, turning his face to the other side without speaking.

In the afternoon, he leaned on the stairwell and stood there for a long time, he looked at that door, thinking about Chen Jingshen's silent knocking appearance, thinking about Chen Jingshen reading the questions with that broken sound-activated light above his head, thinking about Chen Jingshen wiping his eyes with a silent and swift bow of his head the moment the light went out.

He couldn't think about Chen Jingshen like that; it made him ache all over.

Chen Jingshen threw away the computer and reached out to break his face. Didn't break it, only touched a hand of dampness.

She had just laughed at someone else in the bathroom, and now that she was in such a state, she really lost face. Yu Fan put her arms over her face, looking a bit funny, and said coldly, "I didn't dry my face when I washed it just now."

Chen Jingshen hmmm, reached out and turned off the bedside lamp. The room was plunged into darkness, and it was hard to see anything. Chen Jingshen lay beside him with his head propped up, reached up and brushed his chin, and lowered his head to give him a kiss.

Without the light, Yu Fan's sense of shame recovers quite a bit. The language system went on strike for a while and came back online.

"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan's voice was low, "Where have you been looking for me over the holidays?"

"......"

Chen Jingshen was silent in the darkness for a long time, so long that Yu Fan didn't hold back from poking him with his head before saying, "The school that zoned you before."

"Well?"

Chen Jingshen lowers his head and kisses him, "General. It's okay not to go."

"...... And?"

"Fen River."

It was around South City, but somewhere Yu Fan had never been. He swallowed hard, then asked, "There's more."

Chen Jingshen hesitated, reported two more place names, and finally did not want to say, and leaned over to his relatives, saying, "No more."

"How did you find it?"

"Go to the universities in these places and ask questions."

Also asked every high school, hospital, needle in a haystack, blind carpet search.

Yu Fan didn't talk anymore, he was lying flat on his back next to Chen Jingshen, his arm in front of his eyes, as if he was asleep, just breathing a bit heavily and occasionally sniffing.

Throughout his life, Yu Fan has seldom had any serious regrets. When he was a child, he didn't regret resisting Yu Kaiming and getting beaten up; he didn't say a word when his mom left and stayed alone, he didn't regret it; when he went to school, he was so strong and pretentious that he beat up a few people, and the back of his head is still scarred from the beating, he didn't regret it. But now ......

"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan's eyes were numbed by the arm press, and for a long time, he said sullenly, "I've bought a ticket back to South City."

His heart pumped with regret: "But I didn't end up getting in the car, I was stupid ......"

Chen Jingshen The knots in his throat rolled a bit, leaning down to rustily and warmly coax him, "Don't cry."

"No tears, water." Yu Fan said.

"Uh-huh."

Tears were wiped away again and again, Chen Jingshen's movements were gentle, Yu Fan was smothered in his arm for a long time before coming out.

Yu Fan's eyes sparkled in the darkness as he called out, "Chen Jingshen."

"Uh-huh."

"If you leave without me in the future, I will look for you." Yu Fan made a vow, "I'll look for you longer and wider than you've ever looked for me, I'll look for you for the rest of my life."

"......"

"Perhaps you could have been more concise." Chen Jingshen said.

"How concise?"

"Say you like me."

"......"

Yu Fan lies rigidly on the bed, Chen Jingshen waited for a while, but did not wait for anything.

Not feeling sorry for himself, he raised his hand and ran the back of it around Yu Fan's face to make sure the other man wasn't tearing up anymore, and was just about to go and rummage through the eye drops -

"I uh-huh." A muffled voice.

"......"

Chen Jingshen paused for a moment, "What?"

"I uh you." Yu Fan said.

"Didn't hear that."

"...... I love you."

"Really didn't hear that."

"I love you."

Chen Jingshen leaned closer, "You what?"

"......"

The ear was pulled and very soft lips pressed up, "I said I love you! Chen Jingshen, you pretend to be deaf again-"

"Me too." Chen Jingshen responded with a smile.

"......"

The room was quiet for a long time before his ears were unclenched and Yu Fan rolled over violently with his back to him, sleeping stiffly as if he were a mummy on his side.

Chen Jingshen covered his eyes and laughed silently for a moment before consulting, "Did I turn on the light?"

"Mummy" didn't say anything, just moved her hand when the light came on and took the quilt to cover her head.

-

The next day, Yu Fan is attacked all over by the memories of last night, and pretends to be asleep even when he wakes up.

Chen Jingshen glanced at the time and thought it was about time, so he reached over with a yawning hand to touch the buttons around his neck.

Sure enough, the next second the person pretending to be asleep opened his eyes and slapped his hand away, "Touch again to chop off your fingers."

"It just looks familiar."

"Familiar looking my ass, don't all buttons look like that? You don't think this is your-"

"Nope. Misread it, it's not mine."

"?"

Yu Fan jerked his head up from the pillow, "Not yours???"

Chen Jingshen lowered his eyes to meet him coldly for a few seconds, then finally tensed up and inclined his head away.

Chen Jingshen's shoulders had only shaken once, and Yu Fan had already figured out where to bury him.

He turned his head to look for the murder weapon and found nothing to take advantage of, but the cell phone resting on the table suddenly rang.

Strange number, attributed to Nancheng. Yu Fan frowned, not many people had his cell phone number, and if they did, they wouldn't call directly.

He hesitated for a moment before answering.

"Hello, is this Yu Kaiming's family?" On the opposite side was a gentle female voice.

Yu Fan didn't move or speak.

When he looked back and was ready to hang up, the opposite party gave a "hello" sound and then continued: "We are here at the South City Hospital No. 3, the patient was temporarily sent to our hospital because of a cerebral infarction, coupled with the advanced stage of his lung cancer, and although his vital signs have been stabilized, the situation is still not optimistic. You are his son, right? Come to the hospital as soon as possible."

Yu Kaiming is out? When did it happen?

Yu Fan had moved his finger to the hangup button and brought it up again at the words, "Will he live through the morning?"

The opposite party froze for a few seconds before saying, "It's hard to say, but the patient is stable now, if there are no emergencies ......"

That's OK.

"Got it." Yu Fan says, "Thanks."

After hanging up the phone, Chen Jingshen said, "When are you going? I'll accompany you."

"No need."

"Then I'll go secretly." Chen Jingshen repeats, "South City Third Hospital?"

"......"

"It's really not necessary." Yu Fan frowned, "Chen Jingshen, don't be such a stalker."

"It's not a question of pestering or not. I'm afraid I'm not going to ...... this time."

After waiting a few seconds for no movement, Yu Fan turned his head, "What?"

Chen Jingshen : "In a few days you will have to go into the bureau to fish you out."

"......"