Chapter 80: "Then I'll wait."

Yu Fan remained motionless, taking apart each of Chen Jingshen's words one word at a time, chewing and understanding them over and over again in his mind. A little bit of trance, and can not breathe, the ups and downs of breathing are much lighter.

The things Chen Jingshen said, he did all of them, so the boyfriend Chen Jingshen is talking about ......

Yu Fan's eyes widened blankly, and just as the acidity that was about to overflow abruptly receded, the word "breakup" knifed into him again.

Yu Fan would not have deleted Chen Jingshen's WeChat without saying a word if he could have said those two words. On that day, he deleted everyone, except for Chen Jingshen's dialog box, which he stared at for a long time. He watched each of Chen Jingshen's voice calls come and go, watched Chen Jingshen send many "Where" and "Yu Fan", and dragged on for a day and a night, until the high-speed train arrived at the station, and he got off with his luggage, then he drove his finger to press the "Where" button. It was not until the high-speed train arrived, and he got off with his luggage, that he drove his finger to press the delete button.

Words I couldn't say six years ago still clogged my throat.

And ......

Yu Fan called out "Chen Jingshen" in a low voice, confused and puzzled: "...... How do you know I haven't gone back?"

Chen Jingshen did not say anything. Yu Fan remembered something, his grip on Chen Jingshen's clothes became much heavier, his knuckles all turned white, he looked at Chen Jingshen closely, obviously he already had an answer in his heart, but he still couldn't believe it and asked, "Your friends said that you go to look for a boyfriend every holiday... ... Chen Jingshen, who are you looking for?"

Chen Jingshen is still silent.

Where to begin?

That he went to that old house four or five times a week in his senior year of high school, worked on his papers outside, and got kicked out by the security guards?

That he graduated and left contact information for all the families up and down that old house, telling them to call him when they saw their neighbors coming back?

Or that he these years, to Yu Fan before he delineated every school all over the shop, he Yu Fan's favorite school than on their own to go to Jiangda more familiar, and then went around the nearest a few cities and towns, full of head into the sea to fish for a long time, and even the shadow of the needle have not touched.

I didn't feel it when I was doing it, but it seemed too heavy to speak it out. The dark house was quiet for a long time, long enough for Yu Fan to lose patience and open his mouth to urge him to speak, before Chen Jingshen finally spoke.

"Looking for you." Chen Jingshen said, "Waiting for you."

Conjecture was realized, Yu Fan heart like Chen Jingshen grasp in the hand, immediately sour and bitter.

He didn't leave a word, not a single one, when he left Chen Jingshen Where to look?

Yu Fan didn't have the strength to clutch anything anymore, he let go of his hand and hung it to the side, calling out into the darkness, "Chen Jingshen."

"Uh-huh."

"Are you stupid." Yu Fan's voice shook a little.

"Consider me." Chen Jingshen squeezed his neck and kissed him down to a damp, sour patch.

Chen Jingshen braced his fingers on Yu Fan's jaw and lifted his cheek up to kiss him. Chen Jingshen kissed him deeply, stirring Yu Fan's tongue and his fangs, making a dense, burning kissing sound. Yu Fan's whole body went limp from the kiss, and he swallowed in embarrassment and shame, almost suffocating in his heartbeat.

They cuddled closely and exchanged body heat in the cramped couch and snuggled for warmth on cool typhoon days.

Chen Jingshen released the man, lifted his fingers to help Yu Fan wipe off the spilled saliva from the corners of his mouth, pressed against the tip of his nose, and asked for I don't know how many times, "How are you doing?"

Yu Fan, surrounded by alcohol and raging emotions, mumbled, "Not good."

Chen Jingshen inclined his head down again and asked in a low voice in a thin, broken kiss, "All these years, have you ever thought about me?"

Yu Fan was kissed so much that he could only vaguely "hmm", and then nodded again. I think about it every day, I think about it so much that my whole body hurts, I think about it in my dreams, I didn't intend to go to school, but when I looked up the notes you wrote for me, I went on to read them, I would go to the school you wanted to go to in Baidu, but I didn't dare to search for your name.

"Going to break up with me?"

Yu Fan closed his eyes in pain and kissed him as he said, "...... don't want to split."

Just as he finished speaking, the hair between his forehead was lifted all the way to the back, and Chen Jingshen lowered his head and kissed his eyelids, the tip of his nose, and then kissed him on the lips.

All the dust has settled. Chen Jingshen With a calm voice and sore eyes, Chen Jingshen hmmmed very faintly and said, "Then I'll wait."

-

After drinking wine, although Yu Fan's brain was still clear, his body was honestly not strong at all. Even when Chen Jingshen's hand reached into his clothes and pressed warmly on his stomach, he only reacted with a jolt and bit Chen Jingshen's lips in a very vain manner.

"Drinking wine is hard on the stomach." Chen Jingshen asked him.

Chen Jingshen's skin abruptly tingled, then spread around. Yu Fan went to grab his wrist to move it away, but then remembered that this person had the audacity to strangle him just now when his fingers were so cold that it was scary.

Yu Fan shook his head, then said, "Chen Jingshen, how long have you been standing outside the door."

"It didn't take long. Three or four hours." Chen Jingshen finished speaking, and a fierce wind and rain burst out of the window in response.

"......"

Yu Fan was speechless for a moment and frowned, "You wouldn't tell me when you came?"

"You didn't tweet through me."

"...... So you won't call?" Yu Fan clenched his hand into a fist and with little force hammered Chen Jingshen's hand that was sticking out of his shirt, "Get up."

The lights turn on, Yu Fan's eyes are stung by the light, and he closes his eyes dryly, completely awake and ashamed as an afterthought.

Even if it used to be, why are you still fucking crying like this when you're in your twenties ......

Never drink again.

Feeling the redness of his eyes, Yu Fan looked down at the ground, turned on the air conditioner, walked around Chen Jingshen and went to the closet to rummage around, picking out the t-shirt that he'd purposely bought wide to use as a pajama shirt, and threw it back without looking back, "See if it fits, and the towels and toothbrushes are all in the bathroom cabinets."

"Uh-huh." The man behind him asked, "Is there a refrigerator?"

Yu Fan faced the closet and pointed his hand back, "There."

Chen Jingshen didn't know what he was doing, and after a while of various sounds behind him, Yu Fan stood stiffly for half a day, just running out of patience when the bathroom door finally clicked shut.

Yu Fan breathed a sigh of relief and just as he turned back, the bathroom door creaked open again, and his nerves jumped as he immediately faced the closet again.

"Which side is the hot water on." Chen Jingshen asked.

"Left."

"Where do you throw your dirty clothes?"

"The washing machine, outside."

"Got any slippers?"

"No, wash barefoot."

"I ......"

"Chen Jingshen, why are you so troublesome?" Yu Fan gritted his teeth.

"That's the last question." Chen Jingshen looked at the man with his back turned, "Where do I sleep after I wash?"

"......"

"Ask what nonsense? The couch ......" Yu Fan stared at the clothes in front of him and continued expressionlessly, "Sleeping with you? Go upstairs and sleep."

With the bathroom door closed, Yu Fan went to the sofa to get his cell phone, which had just vibrated under his hand countless times, all of which were messages from Wang Yue and the girls checking in with him.

Yu Fan casually replied back, his gaze straying to the messy couch.

Ears rolling again, he rubbed his face, gathered his things up in one piece, and turned to go upstairs.

Then, before his mind was stirred by the after-effects of the alcohol, he took a certain picture off the black felt board and casually hid it in a cabinet.

Chen Jingshen came out of the shower in silence.

He went up the stairs quietly, subconsciously bending his back a little as he reached the last step, then slowly straightening up again. The second floor was low enough that he could feel his hair brushing the top of the wall.

The second floor was much smaller and more lived in than the first. There were two monitors on the table, one large and one small, with the power button still on, so you could tell the owner had left it on for a long time, and a black desk lamp next to it. The DSLR and lenses were placed nicely in a glass cabinet, and then next to it was a simple black felt board with a lot of photos hanging on it.

The bed took up most of the space on the level, which looked to be two meters, and there was a man rolled up in dark blue sheets, sleeping on his right side with his back to him, leaving him halfway up.

Feeling the bed sink in very deeply beside him, Yu Fan slides his cell phone in one motion and continues to scroll down the page.

"Yu Fan," the man behind him called to him.

"Say."

There was no sound, just a couple of scratches in the hair.

Yu Fan said, "You can continue if you don't want your hand anymore."

So the hair was let go, the ear was touched, Yu Fan put down the cell phone to hold back and turn around: "Chen Jingshen, are you annoyed ......"

"Close your eyes."

Yu Fan did so subconsciously, his voice and movements coming to a screeching halt.

Ice towels pressed against his eyelids, cool enough to curl his fingers.

"Leave it on for a while, or it will swell tomorrow." Chen Jingshen said.

"...... Oh."

The first time Yu Fan had ever done such a thing, and without his vision, he unconsciously lay flat on his back, hands interlocked on his stomach, looking very peaceful.

Chen Jingshen surveyed his posture for a moment, pressing her hand against the towel and not resisting inclining her face.

"Chen Jingshen?" Yu Fan frowned sensitively, "What are you laughing at?"

"Nope."

"No shit." Yu Fan pushed his wrist, "Let go of your hand, I ......"

Yu Fan's lips were touched by someone who lowered his head, and his movements froze, making him lose his voice.

"Doesn't it feel small to live here?" Chen Jingshen lowered his eyes and looked at him very carefully, "I can't even raise my head without touching the top of the wall."

"It's not like you're the one I live with." Yu Fan said stiffly.

"But I'm here now."

"......"

Yu Fan Yu Fan that sentence that you get out of here at dawn in the mouth of the circle, has not been able to say, the next person suddenly said: "But this house I look quite familiar."

Yu Fan was puzzled: "What looks familiar?"

"Don't you think," Chen Jingshen states calmly, "it's a little ...... like my old room."

Yu Fan violently raised his hand to cover his mouth and pressed the word "like" back.

"Chen Jingshen, one more word of nonsense from you." The person next to him had the tips of his reddened ears exposed beyond his hair, his voice colder than a typhoon day, "Get the hell out of here at dawn."

-

The next day, Wang Yue noticed that the boy in his studio was even more out of place.

The mask was still on, his hair was messier than usual, and his eyes were slightly swollen.

The kicker is that she came downstairs halfway through and happened to hear him on the phone-

"I'm at work, you can't message me? ...... forgot, I'm through now, you're annoying me, Chen Jingshen."

"Charger? Don't I have one on my bed?"

Yu Fan scratched his hair and leaned back in his chair to think, "See if there's a computer cabinet, or a mirror cabinet."

The sound of Chen Jingshen getting out of bed came from the other end of the line, and Yu Fan took advantage of the moment to squint briefly with his eyes closed.

Last night sleep too late, woke up in the morning originally wanted to stay in bed, found himself being held directly after the scare awake, see clearly is Chen Jingshen and dizziness ...... a morning have been in a mess.

The sound of a cabinet being pulled open rang out, stirring a certain nerve in Yu Fan. He snapped his eyes open, "Wait - don't you move in the first computer cabinet!!!"

The phone was quiet on the other end for a moment.

Chen Jingshen stared at a certain photo that had been casually shoved into a cabinet last night and pinched it up to see, "It's already moving."

"......"

Duh--

Yu Fan hung up the phone.

At lunchtime, the black mask was finally taken off. Wang Yue stared at his busted lip and expression as if he had died, and finally couldn't help but ask, "Baby Fan, are you okay?"

Yu Fan said, "It's fine."

The cell phone on the table vibrated, and Yu Fan picked it up.

[s Requests to add you as a friend, with the additional message: Charger found.]

The name was still the same, but the avatar had changed to a white vignette in an amusement park.

It's a photo of Chen Jingshen that he's been hiding for years.

Wang Yue just wanted to say you don't look good eat a little more, but looked up to see Yu Fan holding up his cell phone, face red, "snapped" and broke the disposable chopsticks in his hand.